Here are days 4, 5 and 6 from Bunni’s slutty distance slave blog…
Enjoy!
MST
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DIARY LOG for Chastity Spittoon Day 04
This is day 4 of Bunni’s slutty diary….Enjoy.
This isn’t exactly a slutty blog….sorry J but more about things I’ve tried and read about regarding feminization which interests me a great deal. Also, do I actually want to be feminized so I can pass as a woman, or is it about the sexual side of feminization. I mean really would you prefer to be a passable woman in the high street?, or a less passable woman dressed as a slut sucking cock at MST’s bidding!
I was thinking of the various ways to feminize and humiliate. Not necessarily all for me! As I’m still a bit of a novice! But I read a lot of these practises and all of them sort of scare and thrill me to some degree or another. I was thinking which if any I would subject myself too or maybe be forced to do and the things I’ve already tried.
Some are way more extreme than others! And do people actually take part in these extreme practices??; does MST subject some of her slaves to these practises? (I’m sure she does)
So there are all sorts of ways to feminize yourself which aren’t exactly extreme or obvious, but they give you a little girly feeling inside. I’ve listed a few I have done, a few I might try and a few that……well let’s say I’m not that hardcore! I’ll keep those for fantasy!
Shaving completely, legs especially is such a feminine thing to do but not obvious to anyone unless your partner maybe. Along with this is grooming including having feminine eyebrows shaped.
Both of these I have done in the past. The eyebrows can sort of be acceptable. Male grooming nowadays is pretty accepted throughout so this can be easy to do. Neither of these things are particularly humiliating I must add! However if you shave your ‘bikini line’ into a traditional woman’s landing strip that is very emasculating. Again I have tried that in the past.
I’ve also tried to lose a lot of weight in the past, the main aim wasn’t because I am exactly fat, but I really wanted to lose a lot of muscle, again I’m not particularly muscular. But men on average have a lot more muscle mass than woman do. I wanted the whole thin little girly arms, slim legs and tiny waist look!….is that a weak little sissy look? Maybe?
Add to these things some other feminization basics I’ve tried in the past including: fake nails, fake eyelashes, wigs, breast forms and some hot female clothes then I must say I’ve looked about as feminine as I was going to get without moving to the next level!
My aim isn’t exactly to move from horny crossdressing submissive to full time transsexual…..so the next steps aren’t really an option. Laser hair removal, Hormone replacement, living full time as a woman, speech therapy, grow out your hair, surgery (breast, facial, full blown sex change), female tattoos, piercings etc……..all of these maybe seem quite fun to me and certainly make a great feminisation fantasy!. But I’m also realistic to know that stuff isn’t going to happen! These seem a little hardcore for the run of the mill crossdresser who just wants to get some sexual kicks! I might dream of becoming the next bimbo tranny pornstar but realistically I think I’ll aim slightly lower.
Alongside the feminization, I think that goes hand in hand with humiliation. In fact I would go as far as to say, the only reason I love feminization and crossdressing is the humiliating effect!
Let’s take wearing a dress, that in itself probably wouldn’t get me all hot and bothered, but add to that asking a young female sales assistant in a shop if you can try the dress on! Then suddenly that big dose of humiliation comes into play. Or MST makes you put on a dress in front of her and ridicules you for being a little bitch…..then that’s when it gets interesting!
Maybe she’d dress me as a sissy and make me dance for her and her friends….again I think it’s the humiliation I crave.
Being emasculated, humiliated and feminized for a superior womans amusement is definitely preferable than just becoming a passable woman.
Being laughed at for being a man who actually wants to look like a pretty little girl is preferable than becoming the pretty little girl in my warped little mind!
Ok well I’ll wrap up this blog today, I’m not sure this blog had any direct or point lol! Just my musings about feminization in general. And maybe me trying to justify and comes to terms with the fact I’ll never be a pretty little girl J.
OK byeeeee for now
Bunni xxxxx
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DIARY LOG for Chastity Spittoon Day 05
This is day 5 of Bunni’s slutty diary….Enjoy.
Day 5 of my blog and day 10 in chastity!
Wow I can’t explain how horny I’ve now become after not cumming for 10 days.
I think it’s safe to say that I would do anything for release right now. If I were lucky enough to be in the presence of MST then I don’t think there’s any order (or cock) I’d turn down.
It’s pretty strange the lengths you’d go to when horny! I’m sure all guys can relate to this.
The feeling you get immediately after release! A sort of shame or embarrassment if you’ve just Cum to something particularly nasty or humiliating! When I was in my previous horny little boy guise, I would of course think much the same as I do now but as soon as I’d cum! Well the things that crossed my mind 5 minutes previous would be the furthest thing on my mind! There’s no way I’d contemplate actually doing some of the things I’d fantasised about.
Let me give you an example. Right now I could fantasise about being dressed up as a little slut, cheap thong and push up bra, suspenders or fishnet tights, Micro Mini skirt, tight little boob tube, Fuck me heels, a face full of makeup and big blonde wig! Some nice red lipstick on my cock sucking lips! I’d then fantasise about MST forcing me to act like a look! Like a complete slut. I’d genuinely suck and fuck anyone she put in front of me! Old, young, fat, dom, sub, tranny, straight, black, white…you name it. It could be in a club, a house, a dungeon or anywhere else and I’d happily play the part of a horny little bimbo porn star slut……..that is before I Cum!
After I’d Cum the thought of acting like that would fill me with shame and embarrassment and I’m pretty sure I couldn’t be persuaded to actually go through with that!
Well that was how I felt before MST.
Now I hope that even after I cum, I will have this NEW mind-set. I would hope now I’ve accepted my fate and my new lifestyle as a emasculated sissy for MST amusement that regardless of if I had cum 5 minutes previous or had been locked up for a month I’d still act the same. That’s what I hope. A change in mind set so I’m constantly in my horny sissy slut mode! Not revert straight back to the male mind set immediately after cumming.
Anyway, I hope I get to release soon! even if it’s a ruined orgasm. I said in an earlier blog I would list the ways I suggested to MST to ruin my own orgasm. These are just ideas and I’m pretty sure they are nothing new, but I haven’t tried any of these.
- Just as I’m about to CUM, stop all stimulation to let my cum dribble out (I know this is an obvious and popular way to ruin an orgasm)
- Make me Wank over a certain type of Porn. Not anything that would turn me on (Sissy, Gay, lesbian, BDSM etc) but maybe old people, really fat guys/girls or some other very off putting material
- Only let me cum once I can fit all 5 fingers up my ass, this would be quite uncomfortable for me to do whilst cumming…I’m currently only at 3 fingers and not really fully inserted!
- Have my mum on speed dial and be forced to call her as I’m about to cum! (That would definitely ruin it for me :))
- Put a bulldog clip on my bellend as I’m about to cum! Ouch!!! Again I’m definitely not a slave who likes pain so this one would ruin it for me.
MST didn’t say I’d get to cum at any point, only that my Orgasms now belong to her. So when I get to cum and how I get to Cum is completely up to her. She did promise me that regardless of when I cum next, I will be tasting my own Cum!
I believe her words were to the effect that: I should be addicted to Cum so I can fulfil my aim and become a CUM SLUT SPITTTOON! And I will definitely be sending Pictures with a mouth full of my own wank Juice as proof!
Ok, I will leave it there for now. I do really want to talk about ex Gf’s, coming clean to them telling them how I’ve now changed, talk about Cuckolding etc….but I just need to get my thoughts and ideas in order before I expand on that topic!
Ok Byeeeee for now
Bunni xxx
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DIARY LOG for Chastity Spittoon Day 06
This is day 6 of Bunni’s slutty diary….Enjoy.
So this is my penultimate slutty blog for MST. Also I’m not on day 11 of Chastity! (Please let me Cum soon MistressJ)
One thing the old male Bunni has always done was to meet up and fuck woman! Pre-arranged dates, one night stands, fuck buddies and relationships. All were inevitably about one thing for me, SEX! Nothing strange with that I’m sure you’ll agree.
I have always treated woman as good as possible. I get enjoyment out of their pleasure (guess even old male Bunni liked to please woman). I like to show them a good time, impress them, treat them like princesses and then fuck them good. But I’ve never really shown them my submissive side.
They would happily wear some heels and stockings for me, a sexy little black dress and at the end of the night suck my cock like…….well…..errrm…….something that sucks cock really wellJ. Little did any of them know I was the secret cock sucker!!
So knowing that, and also becoming interested in the humiliation aspect of BDSM I was thinking what their reaction would be if I actually told them what really turns me on!
What would they say if I admitted I was submissive?
Well let’s be clear, I don’t want to just admit to being a submissive guy. I would like to see all those girls’ reactions when I tell them what I really am, and what I really want. I want to become owned by a Mistress (MST to be exact) and forced to humiliate myself, forced to cross dress, forced to suck cock, forced to do whatever it is pleases my Mistress.
There are a few different personalities when I’m talking about ex gf’s, female friends and fuck buddies I’ve known. So of course their reactions would all be slightly different.
Would it turn me on to let them know what I’m really like deep down. I think it would. As it’s such a humiliating thing to do. I think I’d get off on the thought of humiliating myself in this way. I think maybe this type of scenario is similar to the pleasure subs get from public humiliation or any type of exposure. When your sexual kicks come from embarrassing yourself to others.
Anyway, I have a few fuck buddies who I meet up with on occasions, maybe 2 or 3 times a year. They are both pretty laid back girls, slightly older and pretty submissive themselves. I have given thought to their reactions in particular.
I think what turns me on, is the fact they currently see me as an alpha male (yes it is laughable) and a dominant type of guy. The fact that their opinion of me would immediately change from one of respect and lust, to an opinion of amusement, pity and degradation
To put it bluntly they would stop looking upto me and immediately start to look down on me. I would change from an object of their lust and admiration to an object of their amusement…..and that turns me on a lot.
In the past I’d request naked pictures from them, dressed up, maybe tits out, even pics of them sucking dick! Now would the roles be reversed? Would they want to exact some sort of retribution on me? Embarrass and degrade me like I’d done in the past? Maybe they would like the roleplay and want to try being the dominant one if we were to meet up again?
Who knows, but the thought of their reactions and the possible consequences and my ultimate humiliation is definitely an idea that turns me on immensely.
I guess this is similar in parts to the Cuckold fantasy too. Having your wife or GF humiliate you and fuck other guys. The guys usually involved in Cuckolding scenarios are the dominant big cocked type! Very macho, taking what they want and fucking like a hammer! Whilst the cucks let their wives or partners do as they please and let themselves be humiliated.
Of course there’s lots of aspects to this fantasy too (chastity, interracial, forced bi, cross dressing) and I’m by no means an expert……but I will say this fantasy is pretty hot if it were possible to find a willing partner.
Anyway, those are my crazy thoughts for today 😉
I’m hoping when I complete my last Blog MST will give me a HUGE well done and congratulations and welcome me into her group of slaves with open arms and allow me to cum to my heart’s content!
In reality, I expect I won’t get to CUM, if I do it will be ruined and involve drinking my own wank juice! Swiftly followed by further tasks and an even longer period in chastity.
OK byeeee for now
Bunni xxxxxxxxxx